True Colors

I swear I've been through so many tough obstacles in my life and I've gotten through them all with God. However something's never seem to change when it comes to people. They always seem to show their true colors after a while.

I'm going to write about some of the many challenges that I've gone through with my non sexual life (lol), men, phony people and different things. However throughout this blog I will never mention anyone by name because I'm not trying to get sued...lol especially over the truth and yes I said the truth. It maybe my truth but I'm going to keep it 100% real. I'm going to touch on Men today because it seems that's the main bullshit that I've been dealing with now a day

Mr. Nice Guy: That's what I'm going to call the guy that I will be talking about, however his name may change during the blog and you'll see why...lol

I started talking to Mr. Nice guy through an online dating website (yes online) the chemistry was great. We message each other for months before I decided to initiate things and offer him my number.  What I found out about Mr. Nice Guy was that he was a single dad (which was a plus for me) of two children. He has a little boy and girl. He was never married (but he still takes care of her and we'll talk about that one) but was with his children mom for a very long time. He owns his own business and been doing so for over 6 years or so. I also didn't mention that he is younger than me. (Which shouldn't matter but it will as you keep reading)

So once we exchanged numbers this is where things started getting funky. We talked almost every day and texted each other. I started feeling him until I got to know his story a little better. We talked about his relationship with his children mom. He told me that she lived in LA but had been thinking about moving back to GA so that she could be closer to her children. I understood that and agreed that for her children sake she should. No one wants there mom to be on the other side of the world. He told me that they didn't really get along and that he had cut his ties with her. However, he told the reason why his last relationship didn't work was because the woman felt that he did too much for his kid’s mom. I asked what was it that he did for her and he told me that he had purchased a house for her and took care of the bills while she worked and care for the children. I was confused and asked why he felt he had to pay for her housing. He told me that she wasn't making enough to pay the bills and it was the only way he could get her to stay in GA without her taking the kids back to LA. (This was before he got custody) I told him I understood but thought he must have been out his damn mind. He wasn't my man so I was like hey you have to do what you have to do. In his mind he did what he had to do for his children. However she lives in GA now for good. I wasn't worried about that but I knew that it was certain things that I couldn't put up with. He told me one day when we were trying to link up that he couldn't because he had to go get his kids mom car fixed. Shit, I was like why can’t she do it herself and he said she didn't have the money and he needed to make sure she had a car so that she can get the kids when need be. My antennas went up and I knew this woman would have a hold on him for a very long time and he doesn't realize what she's doing to him. At this point I don't see anything happening with us but I'll continue to flirt and be his friend. He of course asked about my daughters’ father and I told him there was nothing to tell. He was in New York and I lived in Georgia and that right there should say enough. We're not together and we don't plan on being together ever again. Especially after he has had another child from the time I was in GA and moved back to NY...smh (that's a whole other blog by itself)

Oh it doesn't end there. We have gone out twice and both times things seem disconnected. We've talked about sex very briefly and I learned that he wasn't aggressive nor was he open-minded. This was very disappointing because I thought he would at least be a good jump off (I'm single and not a virgin...Lol) but that was shot down by his lack of confidence in what he could do sexually. We had a talk one night and I thought it was going to be a juicy conversation about what we like sexually. I'm always ready for a good conversation with a man to see just how nasty they can get. WHOMP, WHOMP!! That did not happen at all. The most he told me was that he can’t lie in bed with a woman unless he is getting some. Duh, If I'm laying in your bed I expect to get some and if that wasn't the case I could have stayed at home and laid in my own damn bed. He got horny because I told him that I agreed with him on the sleeping in bed together theory. I however was cracking up because that didn't get me excited. I was downright bored with the conversation. Time had gone past since we talked about sex so I decided to throw it out there once again. I started off and asked him was he aggressive and he said no. This is when I learned that Mr. Nice Guy was now Mr. No Confidence Man. Can we say turned off... Yes I was very turned off. He started asking me question about what was the biggest guy I ever had. In my mind I'm thinking why he is concerned with the next man penis... Ah ha he must have the LDS (Little Dick Syndrome) I of course never answered the question about size but I did say that I think a guy should be confident in what he has and he can make a woman have an orgasm then he should be fine. He still wanted to know about if SIZE should matter. I'm thinking men ask these questions but do they really want the answer to it. So now he was curious and wanted to have sex with me but I think it was because I sent him a pic or two (I’m not ashamed of what I do). My dumb ass said I wasn't going to do it and I did anyway. We met up for brunch and talked a little of everything and of course he brought up the size thing again. I told him look the largest guy I ever had was between 9" to 10" and he was like I guess that knocks me out the boat. He said that I like men hung like a horse and I told him a horse isn't made to have sex with a woman so therefore no the hell I don't.. Crazy I want my walls to stay in tack....lol

Guess my point in telling you about this one is don’t lack confidence in yourself because others will be turned off. Another turn off was he told me he's only done oral TWICE are you kidding me. Two kids and you've only done it twice... His response what if the tongue action is quick... Epic Fail....

Until next time I may write more about Mr. NCM