Having a damn, why am I still single moment!

Okay wasn't going to post anything else until next week but I'm feeling a type of way and I need to get it off my chest. So I though what better way to get it out then to write and see if anyone else is feeling like me tonight. 

Ugh, I'm sitting here sipping on some wine with my best friend and I'm thinking to myself why the hell am I home on a Friday night. Why am I not out having some drinks or out with a sexy man. (Told ya'll I was having a moment) This single life is for the fucking birds (excuse my French) but damn I need a little TLC right now. (Told ya'll before I have a child and I'm not a virgin...lol) Look a woman has needs and I don't get the excitement in playing with toys and getting yourself off. Personally it just pisses me off because I need some male attention after it’s all said and done. Yeah I said it I need some good old loving that a toy won’t give me. (Still having a moment...lol) I deserve a good man dammit and I've been waiting for what seems like forever. I know I have to patiently wait for God to send him to me but this be alone thing isn't fun. It makes me feel like am I ever going to meet him. I know he's out there so Lord will you send him now!! Please...lol (but seriously I don't like being alone anymore)

Guess who I saw today. Mr. NCM (no confidence man) he called and said that he wanted to see me and I agreed. It was only for a quick visit so that he could see me. I had on some tights, fitted shirt, sneakers and baseball cap. So you already know this visit was not to get any (sex) or go out to eat anywhere. We decided to meet up at Publix's parking lot (he's not coming to my spot) he was already there when I pulled up. I got a little excited until I seen that he just looked a hot mess. He was in his work clothes but he just looked tired and he had this fake leather looking jacket. I immediately asked him was he cold because I had just turned off my AC before getting out the car? He said that he was cold and a bit tired. I went to hug him (hoping to feel something) and he gave me a church hug. I'm thinking to myself are you serious dude, I'm here looking juicy and you didn't even attempt to cop a feel. (Hey, I'm just keeping it real) So I entertained him for a little bit and he said he had wanted limeade from sonic. I was like go get one and he asked me to take him. I asked was he serious and he said yes. So, I was like what the hell I don't have anything else to do. So he got in my van and asked how many kids did I have I looked at him and rolled my eyes. I told his dumb ass that at one point I had custody of my sisters. I was like whatever we got to sonic and I asked him what he wanted and his said a Cherry limenade. (That’s what he said a cherry lime n ade and it’s called a cherry limeade) I corrected him and he said you know what I mean... Really, I thought to myself get this man back to his car so you can just go. I got back to the parking lot where his car was parked. So we talked a little more and I told him that he was in my blog and he was like really. (At least he knows...lol) I was cracking up inside like only if you knew dude (no he doesn't have the link to my blog either). Finally I kicked him out my van and told him that he needed to go. He got out and I was like give me a hug and he was like you not going to get me all excited. I got out my car and there was this dude that instantly caught my attention. You know why he caught my attention because he licked his lip as soon as I stepped out the van. ( a man who can appreciate a beautiful thick woman) This is what I expected my friend to do when he saw me but he just looked me up and down. Long story short the hugs where still the same... LAME!! I was like what the hell is wrong with this dude, I need some type of aggression (I'm not saying beat my ass but damn) from him but it’s a lost cause not going to even try anymore. I will be his friend and keep giving him advice about his baby momma...lol done! (How about he left his car keys in the ignition and his doors where open, smh he better thank god he had tinted windows. SLOW ASS)

Oh yeah let's not forget he texted me after he left and told me I made him horny on purpose. I asked him how and he said just by seeing you. BOY BYE I ain’t got time for that.

Also spoke to Mr. Right Wrong Guy and all I can said is that things aren't the same and I don't know if will ever be friends like we were before.. Kind of sad but I know my place and I won’t dwell on things I can’t change. On that note my moment is over!!!!

Thanks fellas/ladies for allowing me to have my moment.Lol to blessed to be stressed