Jays Journey!

Trying to determine how I should start this it's like in the past couple of months I went from losing my godmother to being in a relationship then not being in a relationship. I was sick to the point I've lost so much weight and I don't recognize who I am. I've noticed that since exploring the idea of being with a woman it has given me a different perspective on relationships. A woman tends to satisfy specific needs, I would say that I get more attention my moods aren't a bother. However, at the same time, I'm noticing that there are things that lack in being in a relationship with a woman. I'm constantly having a battle with my own conscience as if the decision that I made was the right decision. I love women every size, shape, and color. Whether tall, short or skinny it doesn't matter. I know that I will always have a love for women. I stated before being in the relationship that I was in made me happy because I got the attention that I was missing fr

Some people aren't worth your time or the air you breathe. Deep! Some will suck you dry and wait until your last breath to let you go. No need to wonder how this happened. We continue to let people in our realm without knowing who they are. Not everyone is your friend, not everyone who you call family is family. Deep! It's the truth. We must treat our life like it's our last breath. You anticipate the unexpected, you utilize whatever or whoever it is around that is beneficial not just in that moment but for a lifetime. Yes, I understand we are not made to live forever. However, we were made to live, right?. So, if your not living than your slowly killing yourself. Stop worrying about making everything right. Sometimes you need to look at whats wrong so that you can make it right. Our time is precious, and so is the air (God in my case) that gives you life. Stop holding on to those who will put a knee in your chest and wait till that very moment, then they'll free you.