A late night thought!

So it’s late and I normally don't blog just because but tonight is just one of those nights


So I've been thinking about my life and all that I've gone through. This year had been the most trying year for me. Lost my mom, and moved back to Georgia. Staying with my best friend who is the truly definition of a Real Friend. I swear I couldn't have asked God for a better friend then her. How we met was through the grace of God. It amazes me every time I think about it. Not really going go all deep about how we met but one day I'm sure I will. Tonight is just another night of me reflection on the endless blessings that God had given me. Despite the times I've turned my back on him because I felt that my life was just it. I was going to be stuck in my own self pity forever. I'm human and no one can ever say they haven't turned their back on God. It may sound harsh but when you start to lose faith and allow the enemy to set foot in your space. You start believing (even if for a second) what he telling you. Your life is just this. Why do you think you’re going be more than you are? Your friends aren't even there for you like they said they would be. Yes we all have been there before and you can deny it of you want. (I won't) Guess, what as soon as you let that seep in your spirit, you have given God the cold shoulder. Thinking and asking God why is my life at a standstill, why can't I be loved. Thinking God couldn't love you and allow you to suffer. However, even in the midst of these moments I know that God makes no mistakes. I know that he will and has supplied me with all my needs. I'm learning everyday that life is what you make it. You foresee your life being great. Guess what it will be just that. GREAT!! You thoughts are stronger than you think. Think life, love and perseverance. You'll start to see the difference. I know because I have started and now I have a job that I start next week. I have good men that want to be a part of my life (that's a process) but I have options, I have life again. My life not only has meaning it has purpose. My daughter will see my cry no more, she will see me lift up the name of Jesus and give him all the praise and honor. This is just the beginning of the new. The new me, life, and the new love. Watch out for the things that he will do for me but throughout that I pray for your epiphany for you to see the best for your life as well. Be blessed and goodnight.


I want to thank all those who follow my journey with me. Just know that your support never goes unnoticed and I appreciate you all.

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