Do I want this kind of Love!

How can I ignore that I want a person to be in my life. I cannot talk them but the yearning to hear their voice can sometimes over power of my heart. My heart is kind of torn because I feel I can love this person but he can't give me what I need and I have to respect him for acknowledging that he can't. As disappointed as I am (my heart hurts) I love that he isn't willing to put what we have right now in jeopardy to appease how I'm feeling right now. He knows that what we could have could be great. His self discipline and love he has for he makes me like him that much more. However I don't want to be hurt by waiting on him to figure things out only to find out it is not me he wants. I've prayed and asked God (prior to my conversation tonight) to let me know what I should do as far as him being in my life. Well he confirmed that he wants me to be in his life but he also feels I'm a distraction. I'm confused and disappointed about all of this. I'll let God do his thing on this one. I can't afford to get my heart hurt but I don't want to close myself off either.

I asked two other men about this situation and I got two completely different responses

The Pastor

I told him that I was feeling really confused about this guy that I liked. I told him that it had been a long time since I've had a connection with any man in a very long time. (my daughter father is the only one I've had this type of connection with) I told him that I feeling could fall in love with this man and that he was everything that I wanted in a man.

His response was clear. He told me feelings are just emotions but when you no longer feel that you could love him but KNOW that you can then you know that its something special. So I had to think about his response. Was it just a feeling or did I know I could love this man. At this point I'm not even sure how to take that and on a more spiritual level I know what God has for me, nothing or no one can get in the way of it.

Now the response from

The long time friend

He straight told me not to go down that road with him because he felt I would only get hurt in the process of getting caught up with him. I trust that he had my best interest at heart. (he has a woman) his thing was this if I didn't want to be hurt then I would leave what he and I have now and don't let anything get in the way. I understand his view but I don't live in fear but in faith and trust that what's for me will be just that.

My purpose in writing this is because we all have someone who we can see ourselves with and may want to pursue it further. That may or may not be the best thing to do. Some people have baggage that they need to get rid of and if they let you know from the jump take heed to what they are telling you. I was really hurt tonight but as I talked to him I prayed and asked God for understanding and clarity. I respect this man of God for knowing that he was not ready to take that step due to other things in his life. Man, it's crazy that I could get so emotionally attached to someone that isn't in my life like that. (If your reading this knows that I care for you in more ways then you could imagine but I know you have things that need fixing. Know I'm here for you always.)

Told you guys before everyone reads my stuff and he's no exception but the one thing about him is he understands this is my outlet. (So there are no secrets) Have an awesome night and when you need to pray for clarity ask and be specific. I have and always will do just that. For this situation I will be praying really hard. Don't want to lose him even if we are just friends.... until next time