My journey to Georgia cont.. Part 7

He told me that he couldn’t believe that I would hurt him like that.  He then started to claim that I had another man and that was the reason why I didn’t love him . I tried to explain to him that I wasn’t ready for a long distance relationship. He hung up the phone on me and I had no intentions on calling him back. Not even 1 minute later he called me back and apologize for hanging up on me. I could tell that he was pissed off because he was mumbling to himself. I told him that I cared for him but I couldn’t say that I loved him . He said he understood and that he was willing to take it slower with me so that we could be a couple. I could tell that he didn’t believe what he was telling me because of the distance between us. We hung up on good terms and he told me that he still loved me very much. That same night I meet up with the dudes I met from Morehouse College. My god sister and I gave them directions to come get us and they did without any problems. We went out to eat first then we chose to go back to their apartment. We had decided earlier that day that we were going to  swim after we go out to eat. We changed into our swim suits and went out to the pool with the guys. I remember my friend was dark skinned and my god sister’s  friend was light skinned. They were both well behave guys and didn’t try anything. While swimming my friend was talking to my god sister  and her friend kept talking to me. I was into light skinned guys during that time and she was into dark skinned guys. My god sister and I looked at each other while swimming in the pool and nodded our heads at each other. It was that simple without words we had SWITCHED our dates.

After 2 weeks went finally back to New York but it was a crazy drive back. My god brother feel asleep while we were driving back home. All I remember is I woke up and we were spinning out in the middle of the highway. I swear I seen my life flash right before my eyes. The car finally stop spinning and when it did all you heard was car tires screeching to stop before hitting us.  I would’ve got the full impact of those cars because when the car stop spinning my side was facing the oncoming cars. I was fully awake after that I couldn’t go back to sleep and prayed for our safety back home. When I got to Queens I unpacked my things and went straight to Brooklyn to go see my family. I stayed there a couple of days I needed to get my head right after that trip and ride back.  My step father and I really didn’t get along during that time. He was disappointed that I didn’t want to live in Brooklyn with my family. I had my reasons and I felt that I was over 18  years old and I could make my own decisions. When I did go back to Queens I wished had stayed in Brooklyn. There was some drama going on with the guys and I didn’t feel like dealing with it.  I found out that my god brothers were fighting and one punch the other in the face. So things were really intense with everyone at the house. I stayed to myself and went out everyday so that I didn’t have to deal with the drama. The girls had drama in the house as well. My god brother’s girlfriend moved into the house and that started a big issue. All the guys use to say that we were jealous of her because she was light skinned and pretty. I admit that I didn’t like her at first and that was because I thought she was phony and did things to get attention. I never had words with her but I never appreciated how the guys thought it was because she was light skinned that we didn’t like her. They never took the time to find out with the real issue was. It was time for me to go back to Brooklyn where I never had to deal with issues like that.

After a couple of months I started to stay in Brooklyn more and more. One night in particular I was about to head back home to Queens but decided to stay instead. I fell asleep and I had a dream that my friend (daughter’s father) was being shot at by some men. It was scary because I felt like it was really happening. The phone rang around 3am and it scared the mess out of me. I jumped up heart pounding and answered the phone. I asked who it was and it was my friend (daughter’s father) on the other end. I asked him what happen and why was he calling so late. He told me that he had just been shot….. to be cont..