A moment past!!


Had a moment and I had to step back and evaluate the situation. I'm stronger than I realize and I am able to move past the many obstacles thrown in my way. I've prayed and asked God to show me things that only pertain to my life. He did just that and I will be the first to admit that all things happen for a reason. I cried and yelled but at the end of it all, I did the one thing that always bring me back to my right state of mind. I picked up a pen and my notebook and begin to express in words, the life I no longer will allow my self to remain in. Feelings of being hurt and alone. Yes, these are emotions that sometimes can't be control but when they get the best of you. You feel defeated and lost because of the pain that clouds over your head. Yes, its okay to cry but don't let those tears continue to fall even when the storm has passed. I wont look back and say why didn't I do this or that. I will look back and smile and say that I have overcome that obstacle. Now, Lord please prepare me for the next storm cloud. I thought I was lost and didn't understand why I of all people was going through the pain and suffering. Did I do or say something wrong. Than I remembered if I don't go through pain and suffering, how can I really experience life lessons. At the end of a storm there is a bright and beautiful clear sky. The sky is you way of knowing that another bad storm ended and now your ready to move on and enjoy the life God had granted you. Do I question why I am alone and single? I admit sometimes I do but other times I know that I am being prepared for husband that I will love for eternity

I am not alone, I am free to be myself. I Love myself and I'm allowing others to be apart of my world. I have friends and family that I hold dear to my heart and I love them for always lifting me up when I feel like I'm no longer able to hold on. When times becomes rough, I can call on them to wipe away my tears and not be judgemental about my situation. Guess, I'm realizing that in the moment I found out that I have to just let go and let the tears flow for the time that they do and move on from there. No need to hold on and drown in my own tears... Until next time

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