Alone tonight!

I've gone through life helping everyone else to be happy and some how I lost myself in the process. I've put my dreams on the back burner in hopes that one day I can get mine rolling. Some how I am blessed to have a huge family but I feel so alone. I've been the best mother I can be without the help of her father. By the grace of God I am so blessed to have wonderful parents. I've put my relationships on the back burner with the rest of my dreams and wants. I'm human and I cry, bleed, sleep..etc just like everyone else but why can't I get this feeling of being alone to fade away. I have some regrets but no one knows the real pain I feel when I close my door at night. I pray every night that god gives me one opportunity to show folks who I am.

I've tried to let things go but I can't anymore. Why should I accomadate you and feel like a fool for helping you to see your child. No child support as matter of fact no type of support and I'm the one in tears because of the attitude being thrown my way. I'm doing the right thing. I have wonderful folks in my life that constantly tell me how beautiful I am and I deserve the best in life. I was even told that he didn't think he deserve a woman like me. So why is it that I feel alone

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  1. Calaway.*{February 6, 2012 at 10:00 PM

    You don't have to be alone, in fact you aren't. There are more people that share your / our journey than you think, and that doesn't make it "good" just something to learn from. You seem to be really hurt though persevering still holding on to somethings I think personally you should let go of in order to keep a clear conscious and a healthy one. You're doing a wonderful job, and in a strange twist of fate this has actually been the catalyst bringing out the best in you. No matter where you go in life there is always someone somewhere that thinks the world of you.*{ This was a great read, being able to speak about your life and experiences in the detail you have is certainly speaks volumes and and act very hard to follow. Tinkaniah for President.

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  2. Ms. GFebruary 7, 2012 at 9:23 AM

    I agree with Calaway. Most people experience what you are feeling right now. You are a beautiful person and you are making a difference in so many lives. If it were not for you making the sacrifices that you have made, the lives of your sisters and your children would probably be so different right now. Your giving and sacrifices will not go unrewarded. I believe that God is preparing you right now for an awesome time in your life...these challenges are just the precursor...the distraction...to try and delay your transition...YOU ARE NOT ALONE...WE ALL LOVE AND APPRECIATE YOU YOUNG LADY!!!!

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