Getting through the storm
Today has been one of those days where I didn’t think anything could go right. I woke up grateful that I was blessed to see another day, yet I felt like something was wrong with me. Something inside me felt empty and I dragged around the house even though I knew I had to leave for work in a hour or so. I didn’t care and all I wanted to do was lay back down.
I got an email from an employer who I had already had an interview with last month, stating that I didn’t fax in the correct forms needed and that I would have to reapply for the position again. I was livid because I knew I faxed over within the time it was suppose to be submitted. For some reason this person from Human Resources was just trying to play me as if I never applied for a job before. I was so pissed and on my way to work I started talking to God asking him what was going on and why was I feel like I was going through a test. “A test of my faith, patience’s, but most of all my sanity” I was feeling like I was lost. I was listening to a song by Leandria Johnson, called I shall leap and as soon as I listen to that song the tears started flowing. I needed to speak to my mother and I was getting mad because I knew that wasn’t possible. So, I started talking to her and telling her that I needed her to make things better and to help me understand why. By this time the tears are flowing heavily and my makeup was ruined. I pulled up in the parking lot and put the car in drive and I broke down. I could no longer control my tears they wanted out and I let them flow. I screamed and cried some more and I didn’t care who saw me. I was hurting and it didn’t make it any better that in that very same spot I started to remember him (We talked so much while I was parked outside the job) My emotions was going crazy but I had to look at myself in the mirror and told myself STOP CRYING AND GET IT TOGETHER NOW!!
I checked my email before going into my job and saw that the lady from HR replied and simply told me she has no control over the documents not being received (after I showed her proof) and gave me another number to call. I read it and called her a BITCH because she knew she could’ve done that in the first place. I asked God to forgive me for calling her out her name and asked that he touch her heart and help her have a better day. (it was clear she wasn’t by the email responses) I went into work and saw a coworker who I hadn’t seen in a while and she gave me a hug. She asked me what was wrong and told me to let it go and think positively (I told her the same thing at one point) I told her that I had a lot going on and wanted my mom. I told her that my mom had passed away a year ago. She gave me another hug and mentioned that I was lucky that I didn’t have to work with our coworker who smelled like cat piss. That made me laugh and I went on my way.(I felt good knowing someone cared) I made my way to my dept and as soon as I got to my register another co-worker decided she wanted me to know she was the one who ran that dept. I looked at her with I don’t give too cents lady, why was everyone trying to push my buttons today. She asked me to go to a different register because no one was working in that area. I picked my bag up and didn’t give her a second to complete her sentence. However, I did work with another young lady and we had a great conversation. I told her what happened last year and the mess that I’ve been dealing with now. She had the look of sorrow in her eyes and I told her that I wasn’t telling her my story for her to feel bad. I told her I’m a much stronger person since I’ve gone through losing my mom and aunt in less than five months apart. I also told her about my blog and how my real passion is uplifting people and writing. She was intrigued and asked for my website and I was happy to give it to her.
I finally got home and I was still feeling like crap but I remember that I needed to call the number that the lady from HR gave me. I was going to do it on Monday but something told me to do it right then. I called and I got a sweet lady on the phone. I explained my situation to her and she told me that they had received the fax but I had not signed it and it was voided. I was almost in tears and I told her how the lady from HR told me that she was going to give me another opportunity to sign it and re-fax the paper. She told me she was sorry and I needed to call the job back and see if they could do anything. I couldn’t believe I was about to lose out on a good job. She looked in the system and saw that I had faxed over another form with a different date and she told me that I had again failed to sign the paper. I explained that I gone through this very same process and never had to sign it because there was e-consent on the paper work. She told me because I live in Georgia I had to physically sign it and fax it over. I asked her was it too late and she started to say yes and then she whispered to me and said that she was going to process my paperwork anyway but needed for me to fax over the signed paperwork to her today. She told me to send it to her personally and she would make sure that it was submitted on Monday.(she started the process and that's what counts) All I could say was thank you and told her that she was blessing to me. I called her my angel and told her that I asked my mom to help me today and told her that she must have sent her to me. I was so thankful and I zipped out the driveway and made my way to UPS to fax over the paper. I couldn’t believe that she was doing that for me. I am so grateful that even through my mini shower (not a storm) I came out feeling blessed to know there are some good people out there in this world. I still feel physically drained but I think I may be catching a cold or something. I say to you, we may have some good and bad days but let’s not forget that we have been blessed to see another day. Let’s make it count and give thanks and praises where it’s due.
Until next time… be blessed and enjoy your weekend!! Oh and I have a new book that my cousin sent me called Black Woman Writers 1950-1980 edited by Mari Evans. She keeps me inspired and I’m grateful that she sees the passion I have for writing. Love you P (she reads my blogs...lol)
I got an email from an employer who I had already had an interview with last month, stating that I didn’t fax in the correct forms needed and that I would have to reapply for the position again. I was livid because I knew I faxed over within the time it was suppose to be submitted. For some reason this person from Human Resources was just trying to play me as if I never applied for a job before. I was so pissed and on my way to work I started talking to God asking him what was going on and why was I feel like I was going through a test. “A test of my faith, patience’s, but most of all my sanity” I was feeling like I was lost. I was listening to a song by Leandria Johnson, called I shall leap and as soon as I listen to that song the tears started flowing. I needed to speak to my mother and I was getting mad because I knew that wasn’t possible. So, I started talking to her and telling her that I needed her to make things better and to help me understand why. By this time the tears are flowing heavily and my makeup was ruined. I pulled up in the parking lot and put the car in drive and I broke down. I could no longer control my tears they wanted out and I let them flow. I screamed and cried some more and I didn’t care who saw me. I was hurting and it didn’t make it any better that in that very same spot I started to remember him (We talked so much while I was parked outside the job) My emotions was going crazy but I had to look at myself in the mirror and told myself STOP CRYING AND GET IT TOGETHER NOW!!
I checked my email before going into my job and saw that the lady from HR replied and simply told me she has no control over the documents not being received (after I showed her proof) and gave me another number to call. I read it and called her a BITCH because she knew she could’ve done that in the first place. I asked God to forgive me for calling her out her name and asked that he touch her heart and help her have a better day. (it was clear she wasn’t by the email responses) I went into work and saw a coworker who I hadn’t seen in a while and she gave me a hug. She asked me what was wrong and told me to let it go and think positively (I told her the same thing at one point) I told her that I had a lot going on and wanted my mom. I told her that my mom had passed away a year ago. She gave me another hug and mentioned that I was lucky that I didn’t have to work with our coworker who smelled like cat piss. That made me laugh and I went on my way.(I felt good knowing someone cared) I made my way to my dept and as soon as I got to my register another co-worker decided she wanted me to know she was the one who ran that dept. I looked at her with I don’t give too cents lady, why was everyone trying to push my buttons today. She asked me to go to a different register because no one was working in that area. I picked my bag up and didn’t give her a second to complete her sentence. However, I did work with another young lady and we had a great conversation. I told her what happened last year and the mess that I’ve been dealing with now. She had the look of sorrow in her eyes and I told her that I wasn’t telling her my story for her to feel bad. I told her I’m a much stronger person since I’ve gone through losing my mom and aunt in less than five months apart. I also told her about my blog and how my real passion is uplifting people and writing. She was intrigued and asked for my website and I was happy to give it to her.
I finally got home and I was still feeling like crap but I remember that I needed to call the number that the lady from HR gave me. I was going to do it on Monday but something told me to do it right then. I called and I got a sweet lady on the phone. I explained my situation to her and she told me that they had received the fax but I had not signed it and it was voided. I was almost in tears and I told her how the lady from HR told me that she was going to give me another opportunity to sign it and re-fax the paper. She told me she was sorry and I needed to call the job back and see if they could do anything. I couldn’t believe I was about to lose out on a good job. She looked in the system and saw that I had faxed over another form with a different date and she told me that I had again failed to sign the paper. I explained that I gone through this very same process and never had to sign it because there was e-consent on the paper work. She told me because I live in Georgia I had to physically sign it and fax it over. I asked her was it too late and she started to say yes and then she whispered to me and said that she was going to process my paperwork anyway but needed for me to fax over the signed paperwork to her today. She told me to send it to her personally and she would make sure that it was submitted on Monday.(she started the process and that's what counts) All I could say was thank you and told her that she was blessing to me. I called her my angel and told her that I asked my mom to help me today and told her that she must have sent her to me. I was so thankful and I zipped out the driveway and made my way to UPS to fax over the paper. I couldn’t believe that she was doing that for me. I am so grateful that even through my mini shower (not a storm) I came out feeling blessed to know there are some good people out there in this world. I still feel physically drained but I think I may be catching a cold or something. I say to you, we may have some good and bad days but let’s not forget that we have been blessed to see another day. Let’s make it count and give thanks and praises where it’s due.
Until next time… be blessed and enjoy your weekend!! Oh and I have a new book that my cousin sent me called Black Woman Writers 1950-1980 edited by Mari Evans. She keeps me inspired and I’m grateful that she sees the passion I have for writing. Love you P (she reads my blogs...lol)
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