Jays Journey!

I was shocked after he told me that he had been shot. I told him about the dream that I had right before he called me. We both agreed that that is not normal and I instantly knew there was a deep connection that I had with this man. He was still in Georgia at the time so there wasn’t much that I could do for him being that I was in NY. After the shooting incident we lost contact again. I went back to Queens to pack my things because I decided that I wanted to move back home with my family. My Godmother was still in Georgia and the house in Queens was getting to crowded. I was hoping she would’ve came back to New York and start her childcare back. She started a childcare called Happy Faces and I worked for her. It was the easiest job ever. All I had to do is get up @6am because that is when the first child came. He was just a newborn at the time but I was used to taking care of  babies. It wasn’t my first job but it was one of the best jobs because I was working from home…lol. However

Have you ever thought that it would be possible to fall in love with the same person twice. I struggle with the thoughts of my heart and mind.My heart wants to give it another shot but my mind is telling me to leave it alone. (follow you heart because your mind always plays tricks on you....lol) I never in my life imagine that any feelings would emerge from a single hug. As years, months and days had gone by I admit that some time I have that nagging thought of what “IF”. Scared to even allow my heart to be hurt again. The one thing that I’ve always told myself was that I would never ever let myself get caught up in the what if’s. I have to admit that the one time out of five years of him being here I didn’t expect to such a wonderful time. There was a time at one point that I couldn’t stand the ground he walked on.Yet, today I find myself reminiscing about the good old days. I’ve learned a lot of things about myself while being here in Georgia. I’ve learned how different I am from w

He told me that he couldn’t believe that I would hurt him like that.  He then started to claim that I had another man and that was the reason why I didn’t love him . I tried to explain to him that I wasn’t ready for a long distance relationship. He hung up the phone on me and I had no intentions on calling him back. Not even 1 minute later he called me back and apologize for hanging up on me. I could tell that he was pissed off because he was mumbling to himself. I told him that I cared for him but I couldn’t say that I loved him . He said he understood and that he was willing to take it slower with me so that we could be a couple. I could tell that he didn’t believe what he was telling me because of the distance between us. We hung up on good terms and he told me that he still loved me very much. That same night I meet up with the dudes I met from Morehouse College. My god sister and I gave them directions to come get us and they did without any problems. We went out to eat first then

We talked everyday and we wrote to each other off and on. I was listening to my heart instead of my head and I was excited about talking to him again. I knew there was a connection there because when we talked it was like talking to my soul mate.  He moved down to Georgia to be with his little girl. I was okay with that because he told me that he was living with a roommate and not his daughter’s mom. I asked him what was the reason he kept on looking for me at the stadium. He said the reason why he kept searching for me at the stadium was because he had fallen in love. I couldn’t believe that he could fall in love the first time he seen me. He wanted me to come down to see him in Georgia. I was a little apprehensive about coming down because we had only been talking for three months. The crazy thing is my  Godmother was talking about moving down to Georgia. I was so excited and couldn’t wait to let him know that I might be coming down to Georgia to live as well. In July, My Godmother

he was going to have to do surgery on my mouth. I called my mother and asked that she come be with me during my consultation with the doctor. I brought him the x-ray’s that my previous dentist had done. He looked at the x-ray and said the other doctor shouldn’t have cut into my mouth.  He told me that the tumor was almost the size of a tangerine.  ( imagine something this big growing in your mouth) I was scared out of my mind because he said that he needed to do surgery immediately. He was concern that it was a cancerous tumor and did not want it to get any bigger. Cancer was all I heard from the duration of the conversation. He’s lips were moving but my mind was on the fact that he said Cancer. I just bowed my head and prayed at that very second. I will never forget the very day of surgery because I was about to find out if I had cancer and my face would probably never look the same again. The day of surgery I laid there and prayed as they prepped me. I remember there was this one

My brothers where sitting on the stoop with all of there friends. It seemed like they were just waiting for me to come home. All I could do was shake my head and scrunch down in the car seat. I knew that this wasn’t going to be good at all. As soon as the boys noticed me in the car they all stood up. It was like a chain reaction and I was not looking forward to the outcome. My oldest god brother came right over to my friend window and asked him to roll it down. I told him that he didn’t have to but he told me that he wasn’t scared. I gave him a kiss and got out the car. He wanted to be the man so I let him deal with them. I went into the house to put my things down. I came back out to see if he had left but they all where outside the gate leaning on the fence. They looked like a bunch of thugs and believe me their all far from being anybody’s thug. I went over to the car and told him to leave and that I would call him later. He finally listen and left. My brothers started on me, saying

We finally get to his house and boy was I happy it felt like an oven in there. He introduced me to his mom, aunt and sister and asked me to wait for him in the living room. His mom had asked him to go to the store for her. I felt real uneasy about waiting for him while I had to sit there with his family. I had not expect him to introduce me to his family so quickly. We had only been talking for maybe a month.  As I sat there his mom asked me a question (again feeling uneasy) about how I met her son. I told her we met at the stadium and that we were just friends. He came back and I was never happier to see him  then at that moment. He took me by the hand and lead me to the back of the apartment. His room was painted blue and I was kind of wondering what the heck is wrong with him. I was thinking a grown man with a blue room but learned that it’s his favorite color. I sat on his bed and he knelt down in from of me and grabbed my hand. I thought to myself I know this fool is not about to

We were in the stadium and I seen him again but still I didn’t say anything. I went my way and he his way. I was chilling with my girls and I had to go to the bathroom. No one wanted to go with me and I had to go alone. I came back from the bathroom and didn’t realize that I was lost. I must have went in the wrong part of section that me and my girls where sitting in. I started to look around and guess who I ran into while looking for my girls. Yes, it was crazy because again I had no idea that he was even in the section I got lost in. He seen me and I smiled and looked away quickly. I was excited and nervous all at the same time. he came down towards me and asked if I wanted him to help me find my friends. I agreed but he made me promise that if he helped me that I would come back and talk to him.  Sure I didn’t care because I didn’t think he would find them before me. Unfortunately he did and as soon as I agreed he pointed them out. I was blushing so hard that I just said thank you a

I moved down to Georgia almost five years ago. I move down her to get away from the crazy relationship with my daughters father and of course to better my daughters life. However I will tell you how I managed to go from being a city girl to a country girl. It started after I had my daughter who by the way is 10 years old now.  I was living in Brooklyn, NY with my parents before I decided to move down south.  I am the oldest of nine and I have only 1 brother. Yes, he is the only boy and he was basically picked on by us girls. My dad and mom separated when I was 3 years old and he went to jail for selling drugs. My mom eventually got married when I turned 14 years old. My stepfather and I didn’t get along at first. I was used to being in charge and taking care of my siblings. That passed and we are now closer than ever. Just wanted to give a brief story about my childhood. Now comes the juicy stuff.. My relationship with my daughters father was a big headache. How we meet and winded