Jays Journey!

                                                     (I do not own this picture) Today has been a great day, I got off work early and now I am able to get some writing done. I’ve been MIA for a minute so I haven’t been able to keep you updated with what has been going on with me.  I’m finally in a relationship with someone and I love how things are going. We have our ups and downs but it seems like we are in it for the long run. That’s a whole other blog in itself because I’m sure many will be shocked once I tell my story. However I have a topic that hits home for me because  I believe a lot of people go through this very situation I think some of us lose who we are as a person to make everyone else around us happy. Afraid of not being loved and accepted, we tend to forget who we really are; a Christian, a Jew, Gay, a Teacher etc. Y...

                                                   (This picture does not belong to me the Artist is Carole Clarke)  I know I haven’t been on for a while but due to lack of internet and work driving me up a wall, I have been missing the one thing that I really love doing and that of course is writing. It’s been a lot going on in my family and it’s really been hard dealing with the deaths that has taken place in the last two months. I won’t dwell on that because I know that both my aunts are in a better place and no they are no longer in pain. This may be true but it still doesn’t make it any easier to deal with the lost. I haven’t really been inspired to write about much even though so much has been going on. However, while talking to an old friend today he told me that he was going through something with the mother of his daughter.  First ...

It’s getting close to mothers day and I really haven’t been feeling like myself. I want to cry, scream, sleep just so that I can’t try and mask the pain that is coming on stronger each day. She’s not here and I can’t believe that I’m supposed to just accept this. Yes, I understand that she’s in a better place right now but am I? I still pick up my phone and want to dial her number to tell all the good and bad things going on in my life. I can’t because she’s gone and it breaks every vein in my heart when I think about it. I miss her and I need her with me not only spiritually but physically as well. Mother’s Day will not be the same for me anymore and I know that I’m a mother but how can I smile when I want to cry. I’m being told think about the times she made you smile or laugh. I can do all that but guess what I would normally do when I think about what she did to make me laugh or smile. I would call her and remind her of what she did to make that happen.  Now where doe...

Its feels like forever since I’ve written anything and I know that my work schedule has a lot to do with it but I won’t make excuses and I will try and write as much as I can for now on.  My current situation is that I’m in the library to be able to connect to the internet so that I can write. So here are the latest events that have been going on in my life. Part 2 Work has been great and I’ve been getting the hours I want which means that I’m doing good. My baby girl has finally decided that she wants to try out for a sport and drama class. I know she will do well in drama because she is a drama queen. Not to mention her being a teenager is still hard because next year she will be going to high school. I’m really going to cry then and believe me I’m going to be on my game with them little dirty boys who try and talk to my baby. I’m not going to say that I don’t think she will not be into boys and that boys are not going to like her. I’m simply saying that she will not be able...

Having no internet has been a pain in the neck, I haven’t been able to blog about anything in the last couple of weeks and I really hate that I’ve waited so long to get another post up. As you all know I really appreciate that you take the time out to read my blog, so I thank you all for your support. I have a couple of things to touch on and I’ll probably have to make it into a two part blog. First the job is going great but it also has me so tired where I am unable to do anything. I can tell you this; if you work for the Post Office than you know that you are constantly working. My worst nightmare came true with being a carrier. I had three big dogs charge me when trying to deliver a package. I thought I was going to die that day and I know my heart had to stop at least three times before the owner finally contained all of them. I swear from that point on I vowed that I would not get out my truck unless it was truly necessary. I was hoping that I never got that route again but y...

I had the longest week ever but I’m glad to say that it was a productive one. I am blessed that I have the opportunity to make a better life for me and my baby girl. However, you know I have some things that I have to talk about: one is my journey as a vegetarian, two is him (yes him still), three is people who never mind their business..lol This one is one that I know that I will always deal with for the rest of my life but it’s okay because I’m not even letting it get to me ( okay maybe it got to me a little....lol) It’s been five months since I gave up eating meat and this include seafood too. It wasn’t hard to give up eating meat totally because I was never really a huge meat eater. I gave up eating beef and pork about 12 years ago; it was right after I had my daughter.  Now let me tell you giving up eating seafood has been the hardest in my journey but I don’t need it as much as I want it. The question that I’m always asked is did you give up eating meat to lose weight and I...

I know it’s been a minute since I’ve written anything but a lot has been going on and I want you guys to know that I never forget about you and I don’t want you to forget about me. I’m writing tonight because there is one subject that has been bothering me and I felt the need to write about it. My daily message that I wrote the other day sparked something in me and as always I felt the need to share. Before you find yourself trying to fix a broken relationship, ask yourself this question. Is the relationship worth fixing? Does the other person feel the same way as you? Just because you want that person in your life. Doesn't mean they belong in your life. If someone removed themselves out of your life than let them be the one to fix it. If they’re not reaching out to you then you got your answer. It may have been for the best. Pray on it and God will replace that person with someone who values your friendship. Be blessed and love those who love you This was the message that I sent...