Sleep in peace Granddad!


Yesterday should’ve been a joyous occasion being that it was Father’s Day, but it wasn’t because my grandfather passed away. I had planned on going to see him next month, but I didn’t make it in time to see him.  It hurt my heart so bad because I assumed that he was going to be around long enough for me to spend time with him. Lesson learned; never put off something you can do today. I know he’s not in pain anymore and he can finally rest in peace, but it still hurts.


My grandfather was the best fisherman I ever knew; I will never forget the times he would come in from fishing and have a cooler full of different fish. He was a no-nonsense man and he didn’t like loud noise. I remember once we were on our way to our family reunion and he started screaming at the kids to be quiet. We all kept laughing and playing, but that was all put to a stop when he demanded one of my aunts to get a switch. We were quiet the rest of the trip. He always had stories to tell me about his time he served in the Navy. I was always intrigued by all of his stories and I will never forget his love he had for his family. He wasn’t the mushy type of grandfather, but he had his own way of showing us love. He will be missed by all of his children, grandchildren and so on… It’s over 100+ of us and we keep growing despite the huge loss we suffered in the last two years. My mother and aunt both died before my grandfather and I think he knew something wasn’t right.  He had asked for both my mom and aunt but my other aunts always told him a lie to prevent him from knowing the truth. He lived a long prosperous life and he’s the one that started this foundation and we will continue to be strong and build on it. As much as it hurt; I rather him not be in pain. God took a good man and gave him his wings so that he can continue to watch over my family. I felt that it was best to write and not dwell on the fact that he’s not here anymore. His memories will forever be in our hearts and mind. His death has made me realize that you have to live; you can’t let life get ahead of you and wonder where the years went.   Feeling a bit emotional, so I think I’ll stop for now.  Just needed to get some things off my mind and rest my heart.  Until next time. Please keep my family in your prayers!

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